jemma was not happy today about being left behind and went straight back to bed, the coughing and stuffy head didn't help her mood, i'm sure

since i have nothing to do until after lunch i figured i'd come here and try to remember to write to you once in awhile, but i suspect my thoughts are not as focused as they once had been

guild wars takes a lot of the emotional energy that i cannot focus on you physically and focuses it on time wasting measures, i'm pouring my life down the drain most of the time that i'm playing, and i know i don't understand the difference between needed play and wasting time and energy play, there should be some time apart, especially for us, and there should be some time playing, maybe alone, maybe with the kids, and of course there should be time working and praying and speaking with God, but i think i take all my extra energy and put it into the game that will go away in a few months

once we are both working, we will have so little time together, so much energy will be focused again on working, will we appreciate the time with jemma and isabelle, will we take time for your folks, will we visit karin and lianne and noah and my folks or just sit around here and talk about how busy and how tired we are

it was my plan to learn the history here, to go see things, to be involved in town and in church, to get to know folks, to learn names, to stop and talk on the street, to wave and say hi on the sidewalk and in the store, to know the names of the waitresses and the librarians and the checkout clerks, to smile when i saw your face