it's funny but i think the u2 treatment is working, but way slower than i had hoped...

it should be easy to react in love and kindly spoken words but i find more and more that i want to be selfish, to take advantage of your love and make use of it for my own ends even though i may pay later, should pay sooner, and i feel like i'm killing some small part of myself when i am evil to you...but one day i won't feel the sting of that pain, it will come as easy as breathing to kill you slowly with a love that doesn't quite give but is happy to take and take and take

i think my God must sustain you in our love because i don't think i provide much for you to feed on, and i thank him for making up for my lack