this is 108 though it should be 1275 for hope ends with sight and you have filled my eyes for years now and i still feel desperately in love with you and awed by your beauty, your wisdom and your desire for me, not to mention your apparently unwavering love for God

thank you for your steadfastness despite the internal fury, even if you think it inaction due to fear it inspires me for i act too quickly on my own whims