i want to try to ensure i include you in my life, that i find you including me in your life, that our life is our life and not really yours or mine anyway, and that we share goals, loves, interests, taste in tv and music and movies and internet content to a greater and greater degree as we grow together and grow old together

i want to know that you can share your insecurities when they are real and that i can understand when to fix and when to just listen because you are working it out by talking, though you almost never do that while i tend to several times a year, and i want to know that you trust God to take care of us, to gives us trials and blessings that lead us closer to him, to love him, to love each other, and to glorify his name before man and angels

i want to know if you have considerations i have not even thought of but should make, if you have desires unfulfilled and if you have needs we could address, because while i am mostly an open book you keep yourself bottled

i appreciate your sensibility but i also would like to think i am helping you shoulder your burdens, though perhaps it is more trouble to talk with me about it than to keep it to yourself, and i am not a secretive man so you'd have to classify those things i should never mention to anyone even if it seems perfectly clear to you, i have two secrets i've decided to keep to my grave and they are a heavy burden at times when i remember them, though both have lost significance due to time and spacial separation, i am the wrong person to share secrets with and always have been, i hope because i decided long ago they were more trouble than they're worth and only perpetuate problems and never solve problems (though i wonder if that's true on a national scale) unless you are a script writer in which case they are indispensable

i want to help you figure out what to do and i want to make sure our life is lived as wisely as possible for us, and i want to safeguard our faith in Jesus...i don't care so much about dying except as it relates to accomplishing God's will for us, i definitely believe death is gain and some things are more important than living, and i believe God works everything for our good, even our stupidest mistakes

so share your thoughts with me, tell me your hopes and your dreams and what's important and what isn't and how you think we should make our way there so i can tell you why your ideas are stupid and so typically female that i can't believe we sleep in the same bed at night